"Do not worry over things that generate preoccupation, derangement and anxiety. One thing only is necessary: to lift up your spirit and love God."
-Padre Pio
I recently published a report which referenced PTSD as a result of involvement in various government operations, especially citing intelligence professionals and military personnel.
PTSD, PSY WAR & NEUTRALIZATION: A PERSONAL COMMENTARY
https://barbarahartwellvscia.blogspot.com/2026/06/ptsd-psy-war-neutralization-personal.html
Having known so many of these individuals over the course of a lifetime, personally and professionally, I have had the opportunity (if it could be called that) to witness the syndrome firsthand. For the record, it used to be called Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, which I think is a more accurate designation. I don't like the word “disorder”, but since that is the term now commonly used, making an issue of it would only cause confusion.
And before going further I should state that not only have I been an observer, a witness of others with PTSD, I myself have suffered the symptoms for many years, due to my own background and the extremely traumatic events which repeatedly occurred. So this report will be more personal than most, even while protecting my privacy by revealing only the most general information.
Actually, I don't think I have ever known anyone who worked in the intelligence field, nor anyone who is former military, especially Special Forces, who did not suffer some form of PTSD, in varying degrees of severity.
The fact is, this sort of work comes with the kind of stressors which often involve life-or-death situations, and so can become an occupational hazard.
But I must state that PTSD is not a form of mental illness. It is not a state of delusional disconnect from reality. It is, rather, an effective response, a self-protective mechanism, a way of coping with untenable and unstable circumstances which cannot be dealt with by ordinary means. The fact is, the traumatic events happened. There are lasting effects, as with any form of physical or psychological injury. And that cannot be discounted. When seen from the perspective of 'natural law', it is an instinctive tendency of self-preservation.
My knowledge of PTSD comes primarily from experience (both my own and that of working with others), and less from any of my formal training in psychoanalysis, though that factors in too, and provides some degree of objectivity.
In brief, an outline of my professional background: My formal training is in Jungian analysis, as well as related disciplines. I am not a “psychologist”, nor do I hold any such academic degree. Other than that, there is my seminary training, specializing in pastoral counseling and my years in Christian ministry and private practice in counseling.
I take a dim view of most conventional methods of psychology, as they don't address the deeper issues, especially of a spiritual nature. Perhaps most valuable of all (at least to me), is my work as a profiler, combining various methods which produce results, rather than sticking to rigid protocols, which often don't work. Book learning alone is meaningless without direct personal experience.
The purpose of this report is to offer some ideas for those suffering from PTSD, ways to work toward healing, while maintaining the most stable, peaceful circumstances possible, depending on the individual situation.
And I have to stress the word, “individual”. What works for one person may not be appropriate for another. My hope is to provide some ideas, more or less generic, which can be modified to suit individual needs.
Personally, I am a devout Christian. So it should be understood that I can't help but view things from that perspective. But you don't have to be a Christian to benefit from the ideas offered here. I will not offer remedies of a dogmatic “religious” nature. And I will also not recommend anything which is anathema to my Christian faith, or which I feel might be offensive to my brothers and sisters in Christ.
DISCLAIMER
And I must, in good faith, include a disclaimer, for my own protection, and in respect for my readers. Nothing stated here is to be viewed as “advice”. Not “legal advice”, nor “psychological advice”, nor “medical advice”, nor “religious advice”. As a policy, and on principle, as a journalist with a public website, I do not offer any kind of advice to anyone which is unsolicited, including for the readers of my site, who are almost all strangers. In my view, advice is only to be offered when specifically requested by one person from another. “Advising” the general public can be dangerous, as it could be seen as a call to action, when no such thing is intended.
In this report, I offer only ideas which may be helpful, for stress management and stress reduction, which I have found to bring peace and healing for me and others; these are my personal opinions, not meant as advice. Caveat lector. For information purposes only. The readers may make of this report what they will.
COMMON SYMPTOMS OF PTSD
-A feeling of being under threat, often vague, non-specific, undefined
-Exaggerated startle response to noises, especially loud and sudden, or to the appearance of an unexpected person in the environment
-Flashbacks (intrusive memories) of traumatic events
-Nightmares
-Unwarranted anxiety in mundane situations
-Severe emotional distress from any situation which reminds you of a traumatic event
-Avoidance of people, places, things, which remind you of a traumatic event
-Negative emotions of fear, anger, guilt, even when not appropriate to a particular situation
-Feelings of isolation from family, friends, colleagues, even when in their company
-Dislike of crowds, noise, bright lights
-Difficulty establishing trust in relationships
-Memory blocks connected to past events involving trauma
At this point, I should stress that for those suffering these (or other related) symptoms, I suggest seeking professional help, some form of therapy, so as not to feel overwhelmed and up against it alone. Perhaps starting with a prayer, to find a health practitioner and/or pastor who can provide the support you need.
Then, you can work on developing habits that will go a long way in bringing recovery, healing and peace into your life.
DEALINGS WITH PEOPLE
Dealings with people are usually the source of most stress. Of course, that could be said about anyone's life, it's just far more difficult for those with PTSD.
So I will start with this: Don't expect anyone to understand, nor to offer the support you need –the operative word being “expect”.
In a “normal” life, I think most people would have a “reasonable expectation” of understanding and support from those closest to them, at least in healthy relationships.
But with PTSD it is a rare situation for you to have anyone whose support and loyalty you can rely on. For those who do, you are blessed. For most of us, that is not the case, and knowing that can save endless agony by having expectations which won't be fulfilled.
People will generally not understand what is happening to you, or how you may be responding to events or circumstances. Most often, they will misinterpret your feelings and motives, usually projecting their own views, feelings, opinions on you. Thus, they will make assumptions which are far from the reality of your situation.
Generally, rather than offering support, due to their inaccurate perceptions, they are more likely to bring blame, criticism and judgment.
Some examples:
Those with PTSD are likely to have suffered from a number of injustices – and are outraged as a result.
The people around you may perceive your righteous outrage and pursuit of justice as “vengeful” or “spiteful”. You may feel frustrated, as you know there is no malice in your heart.
If you are reclusive, or concerned about privacy, they may see you as pathologically antisocial. For you, solitude may simply be a way of finding peace, of enjoying respite from the constant noise, activity (and often, drama) of social interactions.
If you are reserved in your interactions with others, they may see you as being a “snob”, when in reality you are simply exercising caution and discretion. People with PTSD tend to be wary and hyper-vigilant, needing time to get to know others before feeling “safe”.
And remember, this report is meant to specifically address former intelligence professionals and military veterans, though there is some overlap with 'ordinary' people.
PERSONALITY TYPES & PTSD
This analysis is generic, not meant to pigeonhole anyone, but hopefully to provide understanding of the differences in personality types, both in PTSD and non-PTSD individuals.
THE EXTRAVERT
He is likely to want to proclaim his personal issues openly, seeking sympathy, approval and validation from others. He may also promote collectivist ideology, in the belief that “we are ALL in this together”, or “we ALL should pursue the same ways and means”. He is likely to dish out unsolicited advice to others, thinking, in error, that because something works for him, it must work for everyone.
The problem here is aggression. Because they falsely believe that “we are ALL alike”, or, “we are ALL the same”, they are unable to see that there are considerable differences in individuals, and so they go gate-crashing into the lives of others, where they are not welcome. They think they know more than they do, and are the type of people who lack discernment and discretion. They may “believe everything they read”, until they are set straight by an irrefutable exposure of the facts.
THE INTROVERT
The introvert tends to hold his feelings close to the vest. They are generally far more discerning when it comes to their perceptions of others. But they find it harder to ask for help when they need it. There may be a general tendency to distrust other people, which might deprive the person of relationships which could have been mutually helpful. The introvert does not seek approval from others, nor does he follow cultural trends in the society. He is often the lone wolf, rather than a pack animal.
From my observations, PTSD is harder for the introvert to deal with, since he feels he is up against it alone, and that no one understands. But then, he is unlikely to give others a chance to understand. However, he is usually willing to listen to others, and offer comfort to them, even while he feels deprived of such comfort himself.
The introvert is more likely to seek comfort in spiritual pursuits, and are more often found in monasteries than the extravert.
So, both types may have advantages and disadvantages. Knowing which type is closer to your personality can help you choose the best options for dealing with people, and developing habits which bring peace and healing.
SOME IDEAS FOR COPING WITH PTSD
Again, these ideas are general, and some may involve little more than using common sense. And I have found that they have helped me and others I have counseled.
PTSD is painful, emotionally and sometimes physically. Stress can bring on symptoms, such as high blood pressure, muscle tension, flare ups of the pain of arthritis or old injuries, exacerbation of chronic pain.
[REMINDER: This is NOT medical advice!]
The main idea is to avoid stress, whenever possible. Secondary is to manage stress when it can't be avoided. Adopting these habits will obviously depend on your personal circumstances; whether you live with a family, or alone. The nature of your work, whether you are an employee, or independent, etc. etc.
WAYS TO AVOID STRESS
SLEEP
If sleep is a problem for you (insomnia, nightmares, sleep disturbances):
Try to make appointments or schedule activities in the afternoon, to remove the pressure of a morning deadline.
Try to retire before midnight, if possible.
Research some natural remedies (herbal supplements, teas) which are relaxing and can enhance sleep. These remedies are thousands of years old, part of God's creation. They are not drugs and have no side effects. Chammomile, melatonin, valerian, are just a few that I have been using for decades. I have used naturopathic medicine for my entire adult life. But always, if you are unsure, ask a doctor.
Use a sound machine. These are available in most pharmacies and are inexpensive. The sounds of rain, ocean waves, a brook, are soothing and can also mask other noises in the environment. I don't ever go to sleep without the sound of rain (that's my favorite). When I lived near the beach, it was the ocean (no machine needed.)
READING. Reading before sleep can be relaxing, depending on the material you choose. Personally, I have been reading the Psalms most nights for many years. I have found that reading the Bible also puts my mind at rest before saying my prayers.
Prayers before sleep. Even if you are not “religious”, you can still pray. God will hear you, I promise.
Pray for peace and the protection of guardian angels for you and your loved ones, whether they are present or not. Ask God to bless your home every night. Also pray for healing, for yourself (including the symptoms of PTSD) and for others as well. My prayers are always for all my friends and family, for all my brothers and sisters in Christ (known and unknown) and for all those in need. We may not know who they are, but guaranteed, God does.
ACTIVITIES
Find things to do which take your mind off troubles, problems and which don't cause stress.
For many people, being out in nature is peaceful and healing. A walk in a forest, on a mountain trail, on the beach, releases tension while you can enjoy the beauty of God's creation. When you are in motion you are less likely to be anxious. You can walk alone, or with a friend, or (best of all!) a dog. I don't have a dog, but I love them and they make great walking companions. Meeting dogs in my travels while walking is always a blessing. Sometimes I even get a kiss!
COMPANION ANIMALS
I love animals, just as many people do. They are such a blessing. They love us, no matter what, and they are always there for us. Especially if you live alone, having a pet can bring peace and healing into your home. Cats are easier to care for than dogs, as they don't need to be walked, and are less messy. And I have found them to be just as affectionate -even though a cat will let you know: You're not the boss of me! Animals are great therapy for PTSD.
ANGEL, MY BELOVED FELINE COMPANION
SPORTS. Depending on your physical condition, you can choose a sport you enjoy. This can help get your mind off negative thoughts and reduce anxiety. Sports also provide a way to be with other people where the focus is on the game, not personal dramas you'd like to avoid.
THE COMPANY YOU KEEP
This can be a minefield for people with PTSD. It is important to be in the company of people who are the least likely to cause stress for you. And you don't want to be in an environment where there is conflict among the people, whether a home or a workplace; that is guaranteed to set off stress.
As mentioned above, even the people closest to you may not understand your feelings or your responses to stress. But you can choose not to discuss certain issues with them, once you realize this.
Rather than agonize over their lack of understanding, or getting into a conflict with them over it, acknowledge to yourself the truth about the situation.
Everyone has “special needs”. Meaning we are all individuals. You can let others know what your needs are (for instance, no loud noises), and if they are unwilling to accommodate you, then you are free to seek another environment, with people who do understand, and who will accommodate you.
Conflicts with people are the worst sort of stress. I don't allow conflicts in my life. Sometimes that means I have to be alone, even when I would prefer company. But solitude with peace is always better than company with conflict. Especially for someone with PTSD.
So, you can ask for what you need, especially on nonnegotiable issues. But if they can't or won't help, leave it there, and look elsewhere.
You may not have a choice as to who are your family (blood relatives), but you do have a choice as to your friends. There will be people you love (friends and family), that might be a serious source of stress for you. This usually happens when they are trying to control you. Don't allow it, it's as simple as that.
You can still love them, of course. But you can decide when and where you meet with them, and what your boundaries are. If they don't respect them, you can walk away. Not permanently, but your own health and peace of mind has to come first. You're not doing them any favors by caving to their demands.
AVOIDANCE OF TRIGGERS
First, you have to know what is likely to be a “trigger” for you. I have known veterans who cannot handle loud noise (I can't either). An example here: A friend (who was ex-CIA) was visiting me in Maine. We were with a couple other friends (not ex-CIA) and decided to go to a restaurant on the beach for lunch. We got a table and ordered drinks. Everything was peaceful... that is, until a loud heavy metal rock band suddenly shattered the peace. I looked at my friend. He looked at me. No words were needed. I said, We're out of here, and I told the other friends just to finish their drinks and we would be outside.
It's true I hate that kind of “music”, but it didn't have the same effect on me. The point is, my friend knew me, and that I had his back, even though the others didn't understand.
And speaking of music, that can be another help to bring peace for PTSD. Depending on the type of music, that is. Heavy metal is stressful and discordant, not recommended to bring peace.
Personally, I was blessed to grow up in a home where both my parents were professional classical musicians.
My father worked at the Metropolitan Opera Company for 25 years, until he passed away in 1976.
MY FATHER WITH MARIA CALLAS
Other than classical music, my favorite is Gregorian chants. I believe they are actually healing and they certainly lower my blood pressure. The added benefit is that demons hate them!
BECOME AN ACTIVIST
There is no greater remedy for those who have suffered grievous injustices than taking action.
I know from bitter experience that it is very easy to fall into the trap of allowing all the terrible things done to us by the bad guys to become an obsession which stops us from “getting a life”. But when we take action, we can at least know that it will make a difference, no matter how small.
Whatever the issue, whatever it is that has caused pain and suffering for you and your loved ones, pursuing justice is the best thing you can do.
Everyone may have a certain issue, or several, that they care about.
My grievances with the government could fill volumes. All the veterans, all the ex-intelligence people I've known feel the same. But some of us became activists, rather than silently wallowing.
And they've come after us with a vengeance. We've been persecuted, harassed and have even become pariahs in “polite society”.
We've been arrested for our activism. Some of us died for it.
We may not see justice in this life. But at least we know that we did something. We did what we could.
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS
People with PTSD have a tendency to be anxious, more than most. Negative thoughts may intrude when you least expect them.
One way to counter this tendency is to count our blessings. We may not even realize how many blessings we have unless we take the time to think about it.
Making a list of blessings can help.
Even the most mundane things are on my list.
Like: I have a roof over my head.
One day, I went to morning Mass at my church. We had a guest Priest (as we often do). His accent was so thick, I had trouble understanding him. But during the homily, he was filled with joy, he was laughing and reminding us of a blessing: You are alive! Go and serve the Lord, and rejoice that you are alive!
Some final thoughts. PTSD is painful. And it's painful when the people around you don't understand. So, it's best to be discreet and selective whom you confide in.
Choose your confidants carefully. You don't need to give details, only what is comfortable for you. But don't ever let anyone discount your condition. You know it's real and that is what matters. Also, don't let anyone minimize your situation, or make light of it.
PTSD is real, it is painful. But it doesn't have to destroy your life. Where there is life, there is hope.
For those reading this who suffer PTSD, I pray that the ideas presented here have been of some help, even as simple as they may be.
And I pray for you peace, healing, and all of God's blessings for you and your loved ones.
Barbara Hartwell
June 26, 2026
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