All
truth passes through three stages: First, it is ridiculed; next it is
violently attacked; finally, it is held to be self-evident.
-Schopenhauer
PREFACE
This
is a segment of an old report (2006). In
keeping with suggestions made by my regular readers, that my reports
are "too long", I have broken some of my past reports into
segments and published them piecemeal.
I
do this only with reports where individual segments may stand alone,
without further explanation. But in all cases, the entire report
provides the context for a full understanding of my message re the
subject matter being addressed.
This
comes from a report titled, The Wreckers: False Lights and the Nature
of Evil (2006).
https://barbarahartwellvscia.blogspot.com/2008/09/wreckers-false-lights-and-nature-of.html
Sometimes
when I look through the internal workings of my site, I see that
certain old reports are getting a large number of views. Not unusual,
as my site is an archive, not a “news site”.
Thinking
back on it, I remembered how in the past I sometimes talked about my
feelings, though my policy has mostly been: Just the facts, Ma'am.
(Remember Sergeant Joe Friday from Dragnet? That was one of my
favorite shows. He got the facts and proceeded from there to solve
the case.)
Over
the years, I cut out most of the stuff about “feelings”. What I
realized is that my feelings are only important to me, that nobody
else cares. And they certainly do not understand. I know this by the
way I have been treated, which is mostly with attempts to push their
own subjective views on me (projection), falsely thinking this will
solve my problems, or at worst, callous disregard.
The
only value of talking about this is that it shows the psychological
devastation that happens to victims of CIA's operations. Don't let
anyone tell you otherwise; at least don't believe them. With their
machinations, their manipulation, if they can't manage to control
you, they will destroy your life. I do believe that anyone who has
ever worked for them will know this, though they may not want to
discuss it publicly.
As
for the PTSD, I have had to find ways of dealing with it, at least
the ways that work for me. Because I know that every person is
different, I realize that my ways are not for everyone.
Personally,
my nature is that of an extreme introvert. I am probably “on the
spectrum” for autism, not by any formal diagnosis, but just through
self knowledge.
I
have become a recluse, not just by nature, but by choice. I am a
fierce defender of my privacy. And my priorities are to have peace
and quiet in my life. I do not allow myself to get into conflicts
with other people. If anyone becomes intrusive or aggressive, I walk
away. Unless they aim fire right up in my face, then, guaranteed, I
shoot back (literally or figuratively).
I
find most people to be far too aggressive. For the most part, I
prefer the company of animals. They are God's innocent creatures,
able to love us without criticism, blame, judgment or demands. We
should preach the gospel to every creature, and I believe they hear
us more than we know.
The
common pop culture is anathema to me. I refuse to participate. I
don't use social media. I refuse to be a slave to a cell phone, as I
am not 'on call' 24/7 for text messages, which others expect to be
immediately answered. They can send me an e-mail, or call and leave a
message on my landline. I will respond when I find time. If that's
not good enough for them, so be it.
I
belong in a monastery. That is my dream, but sadly for me, God has
not seen fit to place me there. So I do the best I can with what I
have. My
home is my sanctuary. Maybe not a monastery, but as close as I can
make it.
As for an update as to how things have gone since that time (2006), materially, it has only grown far worse. In 2010, I was forced to sell my home in Maine, in which I had invested everything I had. My home was all I had to hold on to, as my sanctuary and security.
This loss too, was engineered by the government. Their goal was to drive me to homelessness, which they eventually did in 2013. At that time, I also lost nearly everything else I owned, forced to sell my possessions for pennies on the dollar, or give away the rest to charity. At that time, I was driven to total destitution.
And worst of all, there was not a soul who cared enough to help me, even though I implored them and told them I was in a life-threatening situation. I barely survived, and only by the grace of God.
I am now attempting to survive on disability (less than $12,000 a year), from which I do not even get enough to pay my rent. So for those who slander me and accuse me of being "paid by CIA", you are a bunch of evil liars.
I still don't have anyone I can rely on for anything, material support or otherwise. No family, no friends, not a soul. (The operative word being "rely".)
I do not make any money off my work, including this website. I do not monetize my work, as I do not wish to engage with the public, and cannot offer any special benefits to those who make donations. I can only hope that those who find value in my work will make donations for that reason alone.
So no, my situation is no better than it was in 2006, as to the level of poverty and lack of material support.
Lastly,
I should state that there is only one cure for PTSD, or the other
horrors fomented by corrupt government: Our Lord and Savior Jesus
Christ.
I
didn't say it in the original report, not in so many words, as I should have, so I am saying it now. Better
late than never.
For
anyone suffering under PTSD, especially former intelligence, military
personnel, I hope that in some small way, this might help, if even
only the knowledge that there are others who do understand, and that
no matter how bad things are, there is still hope. And know that I am praying for you every day. I don't know your names, but God does. He cares, and He answers prayers.
Barbara
Hartwell
June
13, 2026
COMMENTARY:
PTSD, PSY WAR & NEUTRALIZATION (2006)
The
process of writing reports like this one is always heartrending for
me, and yet I find it necessary to address these topics for a variety
of reasons, personal as well as professional.
Those
who suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) may find it
quite distressing to read this report. The same could be said for
those who are hypersensitive or empathic. Though I regret that this
is so, to attempt to shield others (even my family and closest
friends) from the brutal truth would be dishonest, a disservice to
all.
On
the other side of the spectrum, there are many who seem hell-bent on
discrediting PTSD, claiming that it is not a "real"
disability. And, as if the PTSD debunkers were not bad enough, there
are others who, in their ignorance, attempt to marginalize its
effects, as if they believe it could simply be cured by waving the
magic wand of "positive thinking"; "releasing negative
energy"; "letting go of the past"; or spouting some
other such bromide redolent of New Age quackery.
Those
of us whose lives have been severely compromised by the mental
anguish, triggered by flashbacks of unresolved past traumas; as well
as some of the attendant painful and debilitating physical symptoms,
know better. Pretending that terrible, life-shattering events of the
past never happened (or that the threat of such events recurring is
not real); discounting cumulative damages to the psyche and body, via
New Age pop psychology, these are not solutions; do not lead to any
form of resolution, much less recovery.
PTSD
was once called "shell shock" or "combat fatigue"
as it was known to be most common among military veterans. But it
doesn't matter what it's called, or who believes it does, or does
not, "exist." What matters is that it is hell to live with,
and made harder still when the people in our lives (as too often
happens) lack understanding, and/or refuse even to acknowledge its
validity. Unfortunately, I know the feeling all too well.
It
also matters that some of us who suffer from PTSD know that our
disability (among a potential host of others, such as Gulf War
Syndrome or fibromyalgia) has been engineered; it was inflicted by
design. Who engineered it? A cabal of evildoers, otherwise known as
agents of the U.S. government.
Even
worse, most of the veterans who suffer from PTSD have been abandoned
and betrayed by the nation they served. As for the "treatment
programs" run by the government, usually through the V.A.
hospitals, they only make the disability much worse. Plying the
patients with psychotropic drugs; along with mandatory group therapy
or 'support groups' are the norm for those who receive disability
benefits.
Mind
control programming in various forms by government psychologists and
psychiatrists completes the "therapy". Containment therapy,
that is. The truth is, the V.A. is just another long arm of the
octopus, designed to force its stranglehold on hapless Americans.
I
have debriefed many military veterans and intelligence operatives
(over a period of more than thirty years, both 'inside' and
'outside'); among them, those who had the misfortune of being
dependent on the V.A. hospitals for medical care and treatment
programs. What I have learned after many years of talking with these
people, as well as from my own independent investigations, is
absolutely appalling.
The
government is engaged in a racket which includes "terminating"
certain military personnel, especially those who have been involved
in black operations. After my involvement in counseling these
veterans, in efforts to help them break free of the government system
designed to destroy them, I realized that the V.A. hospitals are no
better than a "roach motel". Veterans check in, but all too
often, they don't check out.
The
real objective is to silence those who might wake up and smell the
corruption; who might place the blame squarely where it belongs; who
might go so far as to speak out, blow the whistle on government war
crimes which they witnessed, and in which they often unwittingly
participated.
I
believe the intent of the majority who enlist in the military is to
serve their country with honor. But what kind of honor exists in the
DOD? Or CIA? Or any other government agency? The basic right of an
individual to "informed consent" is certainly not honored.
And these individuals have more than just the "need to know"
about all which will deeply affect their own lives, as well as those
of their families. They have the RIGHT TO KNOW.
Those
who dare to ask the vital questions, or challenge authority; or those
with integrity, who stand up against human rights violations, tyranny
and corruption, must be neutralized, one way or another. Why? Because
the whole system is based on lies, cover-ups, manipulation and
brainwashing. On using human beings without regard for their
God-given (natural) rights; completely lacking respect for the
Inviolability of Personhood.
Which
brings me to the next issue: neutralization campaigns. Those who have
been targeted for neutralization (especially former military or
intelligence professionals) will undoubtedly recognize the larger
truth contained herein, a truth which supersedes any personal facts I
may reveal about my own life.
My
hope is that others, those persons not targeted by corrupt government, may see it too, and
it may be that the most I can do is open a small window into the
world of individuals such as myself, and ask them to take a look through it.
I guarantee, they won't like the view, but there's always the chance
that at least a few among them may become outraged enough to stand up
and be counted, to join the opposition to tyranny, to put their lives
on the line in the battle for Liberty.
It's
their battle too, or at least it should be. If not on behalf of
themselves, what about their children and grandchildren? If they
won't fight for freedom for their own families, for future
generations, who will?
Those
who remain in denial; those who, for whatever reasons, cannot or will
not look at the truth, for fear that it may require them to change
their view of the world; to finally admit the stark reality of evil
and the lengths to which evildoers will go to destroy a life, I
implore them to pray for the courage to look anyway, to ask God to
give them a Love of the Truth.
As
for the wreckers themselves, the subject of this report, I hold no
illusions about them. They are evil incarnate; as always, evil is as
evil does. There is no speculation here, nor idle conjecture. I am
not just a bystander, peddling secondhand conspiracy theories, as is
the case with many who call themselves "researchers";
"concerned citizens"; "journalists" or even
"whistleblowers".
I
have witnessed many of these atrocities with my own eyes; have
documented the testimony of reliable witnesses/targets/victims; and
over the course of more than half a century, have been the
victim/target of all too many of these abuses by government, as have
my relatives, friends and professional colleagues.
There
are many who are so misguided and/or malicious that they actually try
to attach blame to me, simply by virtue of the fact that I was born
into a "CIA family."
By
this line of faulty logic, I'm to blame for my family's bloodlines;
for their profession of "government service"; for the
choices they have made; and for the fact that as a child (like most
children) I was not allowed to make my own choices early in life.
Maybe, according to their skewed philosophy (blaming the victim) I'm
to blame for being born at all.
Or,
these unscrupulous detractors vehemently insist that if I were really
"out", and telling the truth, I would be in jail, or dead.
Another blanket statement which is patently absurd, as it has been
disproven many times by former CIA who did get out, did live to tell
the truth, did not end up in jail.
Since
we all die eventually, maybe after I'm gone, some of these fools will
decide I was telling the truth. More likely, they will have a field
day libeling a person who can no longer speak out in defense of
herself. But while I live, I will continue to speak out, in my own
and others' defense, and I will continue to name the perpetrators and
the liars and shills who cover for them.
They
call me a liar; a CIA disinfo agent and much worse. Each time I have
exposed the truth about illegal domestic and foreign covert
operations, criminal conspiracies, racketeering, scams and hoaxes,
naming the names of government criminals, their cronies, minions and
useful idiots --foaming at the mouth, they shout: CIA! CIA! CIA!
Have
they presented any solid evidence in support of their libelous
claims?
None
at all, ever.
Have
they come forward with the testimony of truthful, reliable witnesses
against me? Never once.
Certainly
they have fabricated many outrageous lies for the purpose of
discrediting Barbara Hartwell. They have recruited malicious liars
(some using pseudonyms, in their cowardly fear of being identified
and exposed) to bear false witness against me.
They
have engaged in defamation of character and every smear tactic
imaginable. But they don't have the facts, nor do they have the
truth. As for the evidence which might prove their claims, that is
something they will never have, as it simply does not exist.
There
is really not much I can do about the lies being disseminated by this
network of psychopaths and criminals. I can only continue to expose
them, by name, refute their libelous falsehoods and hope that the
readers of my reports will use discernment and do enough of their own
research to ascertain the facts and arrive at the truth.
It
is my hope that as an expositor, I may serve the truth in the only
ethical way I know: By refusing to minimize, whitewash or sanitize
the truth in any way, specifically the truth as I have witnessed and
experienced it.
My
feelings about the truth are another matter. I don't expect most
others to share them, though I believe there are certain feelings and
responses which will be universal among people of conscience; among
those who defend individual God-given (natural) rights and liberties;
and certainly among those who seek justice, who seek to be
vindicated, even avenged, for the evil done to themselves, their
families and loved ones.
The
brutal assault upon the Spiritual Integrity of individuals and upon
our God-given rights to Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness,
as always, is my greatest concern. In that crusade for justice, I
will not apologize for being a firebrand. There are those who have
called me an "extremist" or a "radical". Fine
with me, never would I have reason to deny it.
But
I wonder, how can they believe it is possible to be too extreme, too
radical, in the exposure of evil or in the pursuit of justice? Shall
we just allow tyrants and evildoers to run roughshod over us? Shall
we allow them to make us into slaves? Shall we compromise with
evildoers, in the false belief that it will keep us "safe"?
Or
shall we expose them for what they are and fight them with everything
we are, everything we have? It is a choice which must be made by each
individual. I made my choice long ago.
In
large measure, this is a report about the nature of evil. And so, my
personal message to the evildoers, the wreckers, is this: May you and
your evil be vanquished; expunged from the face of the earth. May you
reap what you have sown. May God, in His infinite wisdom, judge you,
in the fullness of infinite time, as only God can do.
NEUTRALIZATION
Time
is running out. The plot by the criminals and psychopaths in
government to neutralize me beyond recovery seems finally to be
achieving its end.
By
that I mean complete financial destitution with no known prospects of
reversal; years of disability and chronic illness with no access to
medical care; deemed "not eligible" for disability
benefits, denied by the very government entirely responsible for the
disabilities, caused by decades of abuses and persecution; total
isolation and lack of any support system, having no family or friends
I can rely on for any form of support or assistance.
It
is the classic Psy War against a target: Isolation, alienation,
deprivation. And for its overall effectiveness, it is second to none.
Who
can survive it, and for how long? How can one person, completely
alone in the world, with no backup, no resources, expect justice? I
don't expect it. But my battle plan remains uncompromised and I will
continue fighting for it, as long as I may live.
What
more can they take from me? What is left to destroy? Over the course
of many years of their relentless persecution, I have salvaged what
little I could, time and again, but the primary hope that now remains
is only that I may leave behind enough of the truth so that all and
sundry have access to it.
Those
few with eyes to see will know what I write to be the truth. What
they do with the truth, whether or not they choose to act on it, is
entirely left to their own discretion and of course, individual
conscience.
Some
years ago, I related a story in one of my reports about a
conversation I overheard when perps from the Criminally Insane Agency
mistakenly believed me to be unconscious, after they had drugged me.
They were discussing --actually arguing amongst themselves-- what
they should do about their "problem" with me, as I had been
deemed "beyond salvage." Those familiar with the
intelligence community will recognize the phrase and understand its
meaning all too well.
In
my report, I commented that the way they were talking about me, you
would think I were a sunken ship, rather than a human being. And I
have learned through brutal experience, after more than half a
century of dealings with these cold-blooded life-wrecking rat
bastards, that they do not view any person as a human being, but
rather as a commodity, a subject, or perhaps at best, a "talent"
to be used for their own ends.
You
are deemed either an asset or a liability. An asset, depending on
what use they can make of you, how they can "utilize" you.
And in that case, they will use you, and use you, and use you...
until they use you up. That is, if you let them.
If
a person is in any way a threat to their overriding agenda, which is
COMPLETE CONTROL, that person is deemed a liability. If you are one
of their operatives, trained and groomed by them, for their ends, and
not "going along with the program", not cooperating by
allowing yourself to be utilized in the ways they see fit; if you are
in any way defiant, then "beyond salvage" accurately sums
it up. That phrase is what put me in mind of the wreckers.
Barbara
Hartwell
November,
2006